Today, I typed two words on my fourth manuscript. The two words that are often the most exciting to write. The End. Although it’s only a first draft, the relief I feel is immense but it’s also mixed with a nervousness, and if I’m honest, a little sadness.
Relief, because despite the success of my first three books the self-doubt has never completely gone away. The little voice whispering I won’t be able to do it again. This book has been such a hard write, and a long time in the making, started and abandoned twice, and there were times when I absolutely believed that voice and almost, almost gave up.
Nerves, because this is when it goes over to my agent and publisher for their feedback. This psychological thriller comes from a different angle and I’m hoping it’s one they will like. It’s also pacier, darker and more emotive than my first other books, although I hope it still retains the same feel.
Sadness, because again, I’ve become ridiculously attached to my main character, Ali and in a way this feels like letting her go. She’s been through such a lot in her life (and in my story!) and after spending 8 hours a day with her for almost a year I am already feeling lost without her.
I remind myself that this is not the end, this is the beginning and it’s the next part of the process I enjoy the most. The editing, the shaping of the story, polishing the language. It will be interesting to see, when the edits come back, how they compare to my previous books. I feel I’ve learned so much working with an editor and I’ve tried to put it all into practice. I shall let you know shortly as well as sharing the tips I have picked up along the way.
Insights into the struggling mind of a novelist are always so inspiring for an aspiring novelist (Yours Truly) 🙂 Good luck on your project!
Thanks so much. Good luck to you too.
Now the hard work really begins, Louise! Can’t wait to read this new book.
Thanks Julia. I love editing, my favourite part of the process so looking forward to getting stuck in.
Thanks so much!
This post has made my day! I love your stories. Im sure this will be just as amazing and we can’t wait. Congrats on your first draft!
Congratulations on completing your fourth manuscript!
Thanks – it’s a relief.
Congratulations on completing your 4th novel! X
Thanks – I shall be celebrating!
Stay away from vodka 🤣
Can’t promise!
Great news, Louise. Be good to see the finished product – soon?
Yes, hopefully so.
Well done, Louise. I’m sure it will be another bestseller 🙂
Thanks Sarah. Fingers crossed!
Well done Louise – can’t wait to read it!
Thanks so much Katy, do hope you enjoy it.
The novelist like the artist is always struggling with the fianlity of their art. As a former art jeweler I always struggled while creating my pieces. There was the “I have to make what will sell” and the “I want to make what makes me feel creative.Struggles but, in the end, become success. I’m sure your 4th will be as good or even better then you 1st. Sending 5 stars of Luck !!!
Isadora 😎
I’ll take those 5 stars of luck – thanks so much Isadora. I went on a jewellery making workshop recently. My piece was terrible but I really enjoyed it.
It can be a fun hobby. It gets easier with time. ~~~ : – )